we are all jealous lovers. we love jealously. but there's this song i love by mute math that repeats the phrase 'you are mine'. and its about God, not a girl. but if He is mine, He is everyone else's who believes in Him. so we all share this one thing to live for, to trust in, to know. and yet i connect to no one as if there is this cosmic divine commonality. there is nothing. we don't share well.
i don't know how to love God and show Him I love Him compared to how everyone else loves or shows. it's a spiritual competition and uncertainty with everyone playing differently, but no chance of ever coming out on top. death is the only solution. and goodness, this is how we handle perfect love. i want to love perfectly. but i love as if i do it in spite of myself and in spite of the world.
and nobody loves Him like i do. that's what makes Him mine. yet He loves everyone the same. i want to love Him in everyone i meet. the spark of the divine. but i just crush it in myself and disregard it in others.
and this is how we handle perfect love.
He is mine.
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